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To my beloved friend Jade,

 I am writing this letter from the summit of Jay Mountain, and I keep thinking about the last time I was here, and you were with me. We climbed up the steep side of Jay, you always in the lead, and you took to your business as I took to mine. I would stop to check out the bark and the goose-foot leaves of the young striped maple, or the scraggly troll-hair appearance of the bearded lichen, or the finest specimen of morel mushroom I have yet to find, and you would sniff your way through the understory, detecting things I can only imagine. That day was a good day.

 Today you are not here because age is taking its toll, and I miss you. You can no longer climb mountains because arthritis has stiffened your joints, although you still wag your tail in anticipation every time you see me

Jade refusing to smile for the camera

preparing my backpack for an outing. It pains me to leave you behind, old friend. It pains me to walk alone knowing you are sitting at home, peeking out of the window and awaiting my return. We had so many great adventures, didn’t we?

 Do you remember the time we climbed Cascade with Mike and Heather? It rained all day and the summit was engulfed in cloud cover, making it impossible to see anything but the rock we were walking on. We played hide-and-go-seek by simply walking ten feet in any direction, and the insurmountable mist took care of the rest. It was a wet, dreary day, but we were in good company, and could not help but feel the sense of freedom the mountains instill.

 How about the time we took a short hike up to the Giant’s Nubble two summers ago? I was climbing the slippery rocks at the base of Roaring Brook Falls and you got nervous and started barking at me, begging me to come down. I returned soaking wet and you glared at me, and then proceeded to walk back down the trail without so much as a glance to see if I was following. Such attitude! But I laughed because I knew you meant well.

The Jay Range from Silver Lake Mountain

The last big adventure we had was a hike up Silver Lake Mountain, late last spring. I knew your fourteen years could not handle anything too long or steep, so it was the perfect choice. You were yourself that day, young again, and bounding after any poor creature that triggered your senses. There was still snow lingering on the summit, and I lobbed snowballs to you and you chomped them out of the air, just as you’ve always done. It filled me with joy to see you that way, and your happiness almost made up for the sadness I felt at the limp you developed on the final stretch of our return.

 So on this sunny afternoon I have been thinking about all of the times we have shared, and all of the times you have made me happy. I swear sometimes I still see you as I walk through these woods. Whenever I hear a stick snap I expect to look up and catch you chasing after a chipmunk, like a perfect black shadow crashing through the forest. You’re still there, like a ghost, waiting for me to catch up at the crest of every steep section on the path. Perhaps most of all, I feel like you should be sitting here next to me, basking in this, the warmest of mountain glows.

 Although I cannot reverse the imposition of age, or restore the vitality you have lost, I can promise to do my best to make sure you are content. Our walks are shorter now, but there are still plenty of car rides and relaxing afternoons by the lake to enjoy, and when I come home tonight, we will sit out on the patio and enjoy the pleasant spring weather for a while.

Although I cannot have you by my side as often as I’d like to these days, you will always be with me in spirit, and the thought of you will always bring a smile to my face. You are a gentle creature with a crazy streak that might just rival my own knack for insanity. You are a good friend, a protective friend, and a loyal friend.

I cannot ask for anything more.

 Shaun